This writes backward...I spent the summer and fall with Jon..it was the happiest time of my life so far. Incredible happiness and incredible experiences. I can't write about it yet because it came to incredible sadness. I miss him terribly but he was losing identity. So what is the real identity, then or now?

I wrote is in the blog before I met him

I can not say I can forget this summer! It's a time I realize what I really want to do, and wondering why I wasted all the time and money drifting for a few months.... I am having so much fun with massage school that I can not wait for the second semester.
And I still stay with a clientele I adore...my athlete friends.
Racing is good, the training better. BSLT could have gone better, my back going out and leaving me with an 11 mile walk in the prairie! But what a test of mental toughness.
My equine photography is going well, my paintings, my drawings...