There is noone to help me in a pinch. This I know and been able to concentrate on more of where I am in work and what benefits me. Be as resourceful as I can. It's scary though!! No safety net.
Have the garage sale of Mom's things to finance my Keeneland trip. She would understand I can not store these things and that every little bit is going to help me. I think she would be glad her nice things are not given away as my sister was going to do. It was hard though!!! Clothes I remembered her in, the chair she loved...but I did it.
Realizing Lance was not who I thought he was, THAT is behind me. I'm really null & void on feelings toward him but am told that is good. Kinda embarrassed I got sucked into that one.
Lots of old cruise ship buddies have been coming back into the pic..surprised to run into Jim Smith right at the Home Depot in Georgetown!! And he married Rachael. I look forward to seeing more of them. But it amazes me someone will recognize you after 8-10 yrs in a totally different setting. Out of context!
Racing will be on the back burner another year. I will do what I can but picking up the extra shifts and the studies is most important. Riding horses also takes a backburner. I retired Nick to pasture and until I can afford to ride, take lessons again and have the TB I want, it's best to wait. I have people wanting me to ride for them so I just have to work around that.
I had a horrible race at the 3m half marathon 2 weeks ago: but it didnt' bother me. That's a first!! I just walked when it got more painful and had a blast with everyone. There are three races coming up in March and I'm allowed one of them. I will pick one as a goal. St Croix is not going to happen so I decided maybe it would be better to shoot for Buffalo Springs(June). I was suppossed to be racing there anyway and Mom died.
It's working out, and I just need to have patience